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I’m not afraid of snakes, I’m not afraid of clowns.
I’m not afraid of heights, I’m not afraid to drown.
I’m not scared to jump, I’m not scared to cry.
I’m not scared to fail, I’m not scared to die.
I’m not afraid of bugs, I’m not afraid of sharp thorns.
I’m not afraid of darkness, I’m not afraid to be burned.
I’m not scared of spiders, I’m not scared to be broke.
I’m not scared of cancer, I’m not scared of mean jokes.
I’m not scared to lose, I’m not afraid to bleed.
But I’m afraid to admit that I’m scared you’ll stop loving me.


-me

Hey, girl ...

"I heard once that well behaved women rarely make history, so, be a bad ass and don’t regret a thing. We all die. The goal of life isn’t to live forever; it’s to create something that will. I try hard to make people happy, but in reality everyone needs to go out there and find happiness for themselves. I always keep my head up, and you better believe I have looked back, but I have learned not to, for everything that occurs happens for a reason. Try your best at first impressions, because you only have one kiss, one chance, one dance to be the difference between happily ever after and “yeah she’s just some girl I knew.” When something hurts you, stay mad as long as you can because once it gets you upset, it takes nothing but time to get over it. So you should always be careful on whom you waste your time with, they may not be here tomorrow. Although, you should never forget what they did to you, but never let them know that you remember. I feel if you want something, you have to go out there and take what’s yours, because nothing is impossible. Don’t you ever pray when it rains, if you don’t give thanks when it shines, because you don’t deserve it. Always count your blessings, for they’re long gone, girl. My adventure has begun since the day I was born, and you better believe I'm gonna shine as greatly as the sun. I’ve always been a dreamer. Too often in life, I see girls chasing after something, that isn’t after them. I truly believe the only guy you deserve, is the one who thinks he doesn’t. Everybody can change, for better or for worse, but the only way you’ll ever change is if you give up your old ways. Love is a strong word, and too many people out there throw it around like its nothing. Love is a fire, but whether it’s going to warm your heart or burn your house down, you can never tell but take the risk anyway. Love is pain, tears, confusion, and will break you down, but also it will give you life. Never think about right and wrong, just live life, cross your fingers and hope for the best. For heavens not a place you go when you die, it’s that moment in life when you actually feel alive. Twenty years from now, you’ll be more upset by the things you didn’t do, than the things that you did. Goodbyes are harder than anything - face pressed against the glass as a tear rolls down your face - it’ll never leave my mind. But always be thankful that you have something that makes saying goodbye so hard. You’ll go through life, not knowing who to trust, for suspicion not proof, ruins everything. So build walls high enough around your heart, where you think no one will climb, so when they do you’ll know it’s oh so right. Everyone makes mistakes, I speak without thinking, act without knowing, drink 'til I can't walk, but I believe god knows I mean well. So many girls need to believe that men and women love each other, that they go home to each other every night. They believe that it will happen to them, eventually. Boys, it’s easy for a good girl to go bad, don’t be that reason. You guys got to learn how to treat them right because once that good girl is gone, she’s gone forever. Always remember, "Lucky is the man who is the first love of the woman, luckier is the woman who is the last love of a man". Never fight your feelings, it only makes things complicated and turns into a game. Speak your mind and if nothing happens, realize it’s only for the best. What do you do when he stops loving you? You cry a little then wait for the sun to come up, because it always does. Pain is only temporary, it’s the connections that we make that last forever, and change us in ways we don’t even realize yet. You see, we're all lying in the gutter but some of us; well we're looking at the stars. So girls, this ones to you for being afraid of change, and yet still trying to change things."

"Extraordinary Mind."

"I do not care what SUV you drive, where you reside, and if you know someone who knows someone who knows someone. I do not care if your clothes came from Abercrombie or Wal-Mart, if your trust fund is unlimited or if you have a trust fund at all, and if you are A-list, B-list, or never heard of you list. I only care about the words that flutter from your mind. They are the only thing you truly own, the only thing I will remember you by. Your flashy tee-shirt, your overpriced sneakers, your popularity will not win my heart. I will not look at you any different if you live in a trailer, attend a community college, and your closest friend was bought from Pet Smart. I will not fall in love with your bones and skin. I will not fall in love with the places you have been. I will not fall in love with anything but the words that flutter from your extraordinary mind. Speak your mind, tell me your thoughts, say what you mean and mean what you say. Then my love for you will blossom like a Magnolia in May."

Long time, no update.

I’ve had writer’s block for months. I’ve been kind of wrapped up in this circus, except replace the smelly elephants’ and the crazy monkey with Doctors and my ex boyfriend. I haven’t had inspiration to write about much until today. Life is crazy, ain’t it? One day, you’re determined you’re sick with the worst illness, but you have to smile because you’re certain you’ve found the love of your life, and then the next day the Doctors’ are telling you that you’re going to be just fine, and then that lover ends up being someone you barely even know. It's a bitter-sweet feeling, but it's awful that I'm not sure which situation is sweet and which one is bitter. Life has been one emotional ride for me. So many bumps, swerves, curbs, fast stops, and backing up, pot holes –thank God I always wear my seat belt. Life has been beyond hectic for me lately and through every hard thing I’ve been through –I wouldn’t change it at all. Everything is a learning experience. I’ve learned so much about myself over the past couple of months. I’ve learned that I’m a fighter, but not very independent. I’m extremely kind, but a cold hearted bitch when necessary. I’m negative and naive, but hopeful and guarded. I’m needy and a hopeless romantic, but I’m lonely and single. I have a lot of soul searching to do and I’m excited to change things around and find myself. I’m not sure if a blog is meant for small venting? Who cares, I don’t own a sparkly purple diary anymore.

I'm a super sleepy lady, I'm off to bed. We'll reunite after Desperate Housewives, tomorrow :]